I have a hole in my soul and my life in the shape of her.
Lots of people have been contacting me after everything went down. Only have a few hours here and there so I gotta be selective about whom I spend them with.
Someone asked me recently if I might reenter the normal dating world. Thought about what my dating profile might look like now.
My new normal is anything but. It’s a lotta dealing with a lotta crap but mainly sadness and rage.
There’s a song that goes, “There are storms we cannot weather.” Some days I think I can weather this, most nights, I don’t know if can or even want to.
My mailbox was empty today. Which is good, cause here’s some new awfulness for me to deal with. Luckily, I get some levity here and there.
Went to the wedding of the woman that came every Wednesday to give Alison food. Was a lot more emotional than I thought it would be.
Someone told me remembering someone you love that’s gone is like hugging a porcupine. That sounds about right. Trying to fill up my time with distractions.
Met up with friends this weekend trying to reintegrate into society. Here’s Friday into Saturday morning.