What do you expect?
The boy’s been away for a bit so I could concentrate on the gym and some things I’ve let slide since the theft.
Did manage to see my buddy Jonny for dinner along with Chad. He’s a fun fella and also a partner in the gym.
In any case, the three of us spent the day doing manual labour. Interestingly, Jonny solved a problem that’s been vexing Chad and me for a while now; it wasn’t as thorny as the sacrifice rod, but still…vexing.
Him: See, you shoulda called me immediately, what with my greater intellect.
Me: That was our first mistake. But what do you expect? We’re Americans. Trump was our president for the last four years.
Her: I could never trust you again.
Me: Why is that?
Her: (shrugging) Because I would never know if you were with me because you wanted to be with me or if you wanted to get back at me.
The thing is that I knew this. In fact, I told you about this ten years ago.
It’s weird but it’s part of why I want the boy to read, because, when you read – unlike when do things like watch TV or videos – you get layers of understanding and complexities you’d never get in a million years otherwise.
There’s this scene in The Godfather book that’s not in the film – dunno why the director kept cutting out these important scenes.
Michael kills his brother-in-law, Carlo, and his wife Kay secretly leaves him. Mike’s brother tries to stop her but she says she can’t stay because she can’t be with a man that can’t forgive.
Mike’s brother says something like, even if Michael truly, truly forgave Carlo, Carlo still “had to be killed. Because treachery can’t be forgiven. Michael could have forgiven it, but people never forgive themselves and so they would always be dangerous….[Michael] loves his sister. But he would be shirking his duty to you and his children, to his whole family, to me and my family, if he let…Carlo go free. They would have been a danger to us all, all our lives.”
And that’s when I truly understood everything: I forgave her for what she did, but she never forgave herself and could never believe that I forgave her.
She would always think I was plotting to hurt her out of revenge.
It’s why treachery is the ninth and last circle of hell: It destroys things so utterly and completely.
In other words, I was right. Yay.
Cancer and other fucked up shit like that notwithstanding, we all live the lives we create for ourselves and each other.
And here we are.
The boy’s away and won’t be back for a few weeks. This is him in my kali class. It’s funny, but he’s reminiscent of my friend’s dog, dontcha think?
Albeit much cuter, IMHO.
Location: earlier today, being told to buy solvent from a movie star
Music: Stops counting the crimes and lays down its pride (Spotify)
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