Wannabe Sleepyhead

Location: 21:00, yest, eating poorly in Queens
Mood: guilty
Music: they crowd your bedroom like some thoughts wearing thin

Not been sleeping again and’ve been hitting gym. Tend to look my best when I feel my worst. 16 tabs of ibuprofen and a protein shake for lunch can’t possibly be good.

Don’t it sometimes feel like you’re sleepwalking through life? The rain’s the only thing that reminds me I’m awake.

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Went to see my dad tonight for father’s day and got into a terrible argument.

We actually get along better than most fathers and sons, but still, there’s a reason why children move away.

Dunno what you think of me; I’m probably shorter, geekier, and clumsier than you think I am. Or not, dunno.

Do have my moments of eloquence – just not with my father. Something about fathers turn logical, dispassionate men into yell-ey, argumentative sons.

But, if I had the composure to think of it – and the vocabulary in Chinese to say it – woulda told him this poem by Kahil Gibran:

What I actually said was more like, Lemme live my life, ok?

Do have my moments of eloquence. But only with strangers reading me on digital ink. Just not with my father, whom I love more than most anything – even the rum – but don’t wanna be.

YASYCTAI: Have y’ever written an email/letter to your dad? Not easy. Even if y’like writing, it’s not easy. (hours/2 pts)

4 thoughts on “Wannabe Sleepyhead”

  1. i'm no doctor but 16 tabs can't be good for u.as far as insomnia– no caffeine, melatonin and valerian to regulate sleep cycles, and earplugs. i love earplugs and sleep so much better since i started usin em. u can get them at cvs/walgreens/duane reade. i use the "howard leight max"– awesomeness.http://www.slate.com/id/2118800/

  2. Sleepwalking through life? Oh yes, all the time. (Spent Feb – May doing just that.)And yes, I totally get/agree with you on the parent thing. (That's all I can say, without going into a long diatribe).-R

  3. No, ibuprofen and a protein shake isn't really lunch…but is McD's any better? :PGood luck with the insomnia though. Mine didn't last long this year which was a nice change. I hope yours passes soon too.

  4. Suz – that may be the most comprehensive list of earplugs I've ever seen. I'll remember to refer to it in the future!Anonymous – I'm ever sleepwalking, I think. And as for parents, yes, we'll leave it at that.Alana – McD's certainly tastes better, if nothing else. I hope my insomnia spell stops soon; you're lucky!

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