In any relationship, there’s always the time when you’re faced with two competing, equally valid, points of view.
- On the one hand, you should never accept piss-poor behaviour.
- On the other hand, you should forgive people their screw-ups.
Friday, was supposed to see someone but she just completely flaked. Not even a text saying, Not showing up. Her explanation was that this is her reality – this is acceptable behaviour for her and her friends. Which only makes me believe more than ever that you are the company you keep. Should point out we got into what I thought was a minor disagreement but what she thought was a full on argument prior to the evening.
When we finally spoke, I was livid.
But here’s the thing: after all was said and done, she pointed out one time that I showed piss-poor behaviour. And she said she forgave me.
You know, every night, every single one, I ask to be forgiven our trespasses as we forgive those that trespass against us. These can’t be empty words. Cause, I gotta believe you’re more than just your thoughtless screw-ups. Cause, I gotta believe that I’m more than my awful things.
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Saturday, in the midst of a hurricane, see LisaV and her friends downtown at onea my favorite joints, a hidden bar called East Side Company. No signs, no lines. Just the number 49, baby. Meet her friend, a tall, hella attractive Asian girl and ask for her info – but it’s not for me; she’s exactly my buddy’s type. Sometimes, you take one for the team, yeah?
Sunday, meet up with Heartgirl for a last minute thing. Stop by her place and help her bake cookies and discuss Scrabble. We had The Talk but it was nuthin I didn’t already know. Put our shades on and we’re off to a BBQ in Brooklyn where we hung out with her friends. Nice group but more on that some other time.
Get home Sunday night with a belly fulla charred meat, fatty carbs and beer. Nice but in my head I think, Man, summer’s really not my season.
But fall, man…fall’s my season. Cannot wait to see my fall blue sky again.
Location: 16:20 yest, eating burger #2 in Brooklyn
Mood: beat
Music: I know enough to know when someone trusts you
4 replies on “Our trespasses”
I am SO excited for fall. January is when the year begins but fall is when I feel like I get to start over.
haha I didn't click one of your links until after I commented and realized I just said the same thing you did, a year ago.
i find it odd that ppl can know someone else's type… strangely annoys me that ppl think they can know that (not that this post annoys me — more when ppl use that thinking on me). supposed that you could guess for some set of random combinations… and hope it falls somewhere near where that other person tends to go.. but really? i don't think ppl are as predictable as that when it comes to real love.and yay! i took a quickie trip and got to brave the hurricane storms too! fun!!
[…] Me: I could teach you stuff but it’ll make you different. People don’t like different. So, you have to learn to hide a lotta things. Him: I already see how different everything is now. Things make more sense. I want to understand. Me: (nodding) Then I’ll help you understand. But be careful. Understanding things doesn’t always make things better, it can make some things worse. Ignorance does have it’s benefits. But I’ll show you, if you really want. And if, one day, you find out something terrible about me, I hope you remember that I told you that I’d done terrible things before and forgive me. (sighing) Everyone wants to be forgiven for the shitty things they’ve done. […]