Back on the dark side of the moon
It’s funny. When I don’t write for a while, it’s either because I’ve got a lot going on or nuthin at all.
It’s been busy here but hard to explain with what.
After you’ve taken yourself outta society, it takes a while to reintegrate.
Saw some friends a little while back for a lunch out in Queens at the New York Food Court. PB was there as was my brother and several other people I knew and didn’t know.
Alison was alive the last time I saw them all. Just like everyone else I’ve seen. It’s a hard thing to think about.
My brother and I have a somewhat rare quirk in that we have very close female friends who are simply that: Female friends.
His best friend is female and was there for lunch. She was the woman in this entry where I hoped I’d never face the kind of tragedy she did. That didn’t work out the way I’d hoped.
I spoke to her after everything went down. Asked her how she survived the blow.
As an aside, I met another woman this past week who lost both her parents in her teens and asked the same question. But that’s another story for another time.
In any case, no one ever really has an explanation. People just survive, somehow.
I’m surviving somehow, I think. With the help of some good souls.
Her: I hear about you meeting up with all these women, when are you going to ask me for a friend date?
Me: You wouldn’t like the cost of admission.
Her: Ewww, gross, Logan!
Me: (laughing) You know who and what I am. But I’ll see you again soon enough, I’m sure.
In that good souls entry, the horrible event I alluded to was the loss of yet another pregnancy for Alison and me.
I wish everything was different.
Ah, goddammit. I’m back here again.
Location: back on the dark side of the moon
Mood: back on the dark side of the moon
Music: Are you at it again? I think you hold your heart too close to the vest