Interacting with people again
There are people that I’ve not spoken to now in years. After everything went down with Alison, I kinda just dropped off the radar, save for this blog.
But a little while ago, I met up with my friends around the way and had some 1975 Armagnac de Montal.
Me: What’s the occasion?
Him: Just good to see you again.
And KG Betty wrote me to ask if I was gone from her life. Called her this weekend to tell her I wasn’t.
Me: I’m sorry I’ve been away for so long. I’ve just been dealing with alla this stuff.
KG Betty: I know. It’s nice hearing your voice again. How are you?
The problem is that so little means anything to me these days, beyond the boy. It’s hard to muster the energy it takes to be part of society in any meaningful way.
Spoke to Gradgirl recently as well.
Me: Are you alright?
Me: Should I stop asking?
Her: It doesn’t matter. I’ll keep lying.
And I saw my sister-in-law the other day at her new home in New Jersey to fix her WiFi network and grab lunch. Went with her for her closing earlier this year, just for moral support.
SIL: You should stop feeling sorry for yourself.
Me: I don’t think I feel sorry for myself. I feel sorry that she’s not here.
It’s weird interacting with people these days for any reason beyond child-rearing. Feel like I’m putting on a show alla time. But I suppose it’s a lotta, Fake it till you make it.
Did see the Gymgirl the other day, though. She invited me to a work/school thingy. We’re trying a few things out.
Gymgirl: Who was that?
Me: The Gradgirl. She’s in town for a bit.
Her: Are you going to see her?
Me: Why would I do that?
Her: Didn’t you say you like to make out with her?
Me: But I already have.
Her: Oh, that’s a good response. (holding up hand) That deserves a high five.
Location: still in my hellish week
Music: And how the days have flown too few & fast