Me: I’m gonna be 40 soon.
Her: (puzzled) You’re 36.
Me: Oh, it’s there. It’s there.
Don’t think I could write anything better than what I wrote last year for Thanksgiving 2008 so I’ll just direct you there.
My house still smells of fresh baked cookies from Heartgirl. Hope you have something similar.
Happy Turkey Day, people!
Location: 18:00 yest, baking cookies in the UWS
Mood: thankful
Music: Oh, I can cook too, on top of the rest (Spotify)
Location: my usual black chair
Mood: groggy
Music: a year? In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee
In NYC, the average rent is $30-35 per square foot per year. A bookshelf takes up about a three square feet of space. I would need three for all of the books I got. That’s a nine square foot footprint, or $270-$315 a year for rent just to keep my books.
Ergo, ebook reader.
The issue is that all of the screens’re too small. Don’t wanna have to get surgery on my eyes to repair them to save $270-$315; that makes no sense. The Kindle DX has a huge screen but no way to zoom; the iRex reader has a huge screen and zoom but’s crazy expensive and dim.
So, looks like I gotta wait.
Hate waiting for the future to come. According to television, we were supposta all get jet cars by now.
And television never lies.
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Then again – was 20 when those ads in the vid above first came out.
Funny thing is that every single onea those things the guy said turned true.
In fact, I’ve done all but threea those things he said.
Listen to the voice, know who he is?
YASYCTAI: Be hopeful. You’ll live longer. And happier. (525,600 minutes /3 pts)
www.loganlo.com
Location: my bed
Mood: artistic
Music: Never know what we will see. Come take a walk with me.
Her: Sure.
Me: Sure. (later) …that is if we can ever find the entrance.
Me: I like it. It Reminds me of why I like this place so much.
Her: (amused) I’ve been to Union Square before, you know.
YASYCTAI: Enjoy the nice days before they’re gone. (240 mins/1 pt)
Location: 21:00 yest, Battery Park City
Mood: groggy
Music: you should be wilder, you’re no fun at all
Stopped by PB’s where I had my body weight in pixie sticks and rum after the rain. Heartgirl and I wore Star Trek uniforms that were way too big on us. Either medium in America isn’t what it used to be or I’m shrinking. Just realized right this moment that for the past five Halloweens, wore red.
Saw RE Mike last night. He’s been making lotsa deals and picked himself up a nice one-bedroom downtown. We were talking shop over some $6 Halal food and a bottlea red.
Also met up with the lawyers been working with on some things. Went out to this crazy nice Italian joint and met their wives. Super nice, all of them. Says a lot about you when you meet someone’s favourite person and they’re exactly like y’thought they’d be.
November 2009, already. Where does the time go?
YASYCTAI: Buy next year’s costume early. Never hurts to be prepared. (20 mins/0.5 pts)
Location: home all day
Mood: coughy
Music: just can’t keep on running away so it stops today
Posting on Tuesday and Thursday mornings starting this Thursday (yawn).
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Me: (opening microwave) It’s fi..whoa. Maybe that is bad. (thinking) Nah…
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Windows;
Yes, it’s true. It is Mac. Didn’t mean for it to happen. Just did. Your suspicions were right, we were together those times when my brother brought her by the place.
If it makes it any better, dunno why it might, it’s not like I traded in for some younger model as she’s older than you. Say this cause I know that her looks have made you jealous in the past and wanted to tell you that you look, honestly, as good as she does or even better now. The work that you had done late this month was really stunning. Really.
But – it’s not been your looks. It never really has. It’s just the times you left me hanging. Waiting. Hoping that this time, this time would be different.
And it just never was.
Gave you everything y’asked for: RAM, done. Bigger Harddrive, there. Speedier videocard, bam. Never enough.
And a relationship’s not just about the parties involved, it’s also what they come with, their family’s. The Dells, the Toshibas, the HPs – the HPs were the worst – they were, to be polite, never what they seemed to be.
We spent almost 20 years together – 20 years! Defended you when everyone was against you. But y’never did the same for me.
Can’t take the constant disappointments. Waited until now, after your latest operation and, like I said, you look and work amazingly. Sometimes, a relationship’s too damaged to repair. too little, too late.
Y’still have your admirers and your new looks. But I gotta go and do right by me. Not outta your life forever, though. Y’can’t just walk away from two decades of shared memories just like that.
But you’re not my number one gal anyone and for that, I’m sorry. Can’t spend another two decades waiting for you to get it right.
Logan
YASYCTAI: Back up your data – it’s your digital life. (60 mins/1 pt)
Location: 13:00 yest, Allen and Stanton
Mood: busy
Music: Comment faire verrai-je un jour la fin de ce calvaire
Back to our regularly scheduled nonsense. Told y’about the pic above, yeah?
Ran around Chinatown today and stopped by Rain’s. He and I’re somewhat unique in that we both got enormous NYC pads despite, or perhaps resulting in, our never having any coin.
Now he’s got dogs now running all over the joint. Not a dog person myself. Not an animal person in general – unless they’re slow roasting with some lemon and salt. Kidding! (sorta)
Y’know, this book Animals Make Us Human says that all animals are wired to feel four emotions – three negative and one positive. They wanna avoid:
Cattle, apparently, are pretty happy cause they got all four.
Think we’re the same way. Said it before, the purpose of life is to have purpose. Realized tonight that my best friend was missing having a goal and that was getting to her.
Back to Rain, we (sorta) got a new goal – pitched him another non-income producing art project along the lines of Bachelor Cooking and 72nd to Canal – and he seemed to be pretty positive about it.
Lemme piece something together and we’ll see what happens.
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Also in the book is that, apparently, we never know what cats’re thinking cause they don’t have eyebrows.
YASYCTAI: What are your goals for the day? Week? Month? Year? (60 mins/2 pts)
Me: How high’s your blood pressure?
Her: XXX over XXX.
Me: HOLY COW! Eat some oatmeal, mom!
Her: I can’t, I’m having a mango.
Me: (exasperated) I didn’t mean right now…
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HG: Why couldn’t you sleep?
Me: Was screwing around online and got a notice from a friend that a girl I worked with passed away. She just got married. Cancer. Thing is, had her email addy the whole time. Kept thinking I’d drop her a line but..never did. Dunno why.
Her: (patting my shoulder) I’m sorry about your friend.
Me: She wasn’t a friend so much as someone I knew. But she always said “Hi” to me. It’s just that she was younger than me. Seems so unfair. Never woulda thought…
Still believe that A man’s dying is more the survivors’ affair than his own. But she was too young to go, I think.
Went to church this past Sunday. It’s hard to have faith in the big city.
It’s hard to have faith when you’re at an age where everyone’s getting older, people y’know die, madmen say’n do mad things. Doesn’t make any damn sense.
But there’s this song that has this line that goes, Thank goodness for the good souls that make life better. So I turn to you and I say, if it wasn’t for the good souls, life would not matter,
Him: Why does my daughter look Chinese, dude? She’s 1/4 Asian and it looks like there’s not a drop of black in her.
Me: It’s a girl! Congrats! And…um…I’ll be in Mexico…for the forseeable future.
Him: (laughing) I swear, if she starts talking a lot with her hands, I’ll find you.
Me: Don’t blame me that my people’s gene’s are strong.
Thank God for the good souls.
Bye, Lee. It sounds like you had lotsa good souls around and I hope they make it through this somehow. I’m sorry you had to go. You were way too young to go.
Location: 16:00 yest, turning onto Van Dam to go home
Mood: pensive
Music: Christ, I’m out of my mind
Location: 13:00 yest, E on Williamsburg, 17:00 W on 59th St
Mood: rushed
Music: In this world it’s hard to get it right
My leg’s not fallen off. This is a good sign. You’ll be apprised, should the situation change.
Still sick though. Can’t shake this damn cough.
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Went out to Brooklyn today for a potential gig. Never know if it’ll actually happen but y’gotta go for every thing out there when you eat what you kill.
Sometimes y’land a whale; most times it’s just sardines.
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My brother’s trying to convince me to get a Mac. Problem’s that I’m so useda doing what I do, how I do it.
Rain once said,
Imagine if y’go to a bar and there’re beautiful women everywhere. Y’walk up to the hottest broad, say something, and she loves it. And everything y’say to every women works.
In real life the bar sucks, the women are only ok and nuthing y’ever say to them works.
The first part’s like working with programs on a mac, the second’s the crap you use.
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Halloween’s coming up. Dunno what it’s like where you are, but here in the Big City, it’s carte blanche for the girlies to tart it up.
Halloween rocks.
YASYCTAI: It’s time to buy a costume. Y’gotta, cause if y’wait any longer, you’ll spent $70 for a jedi robe that doesn’t fit properly and go to a party where it’s all dudes who did the same things. (15 online mins/0.25 pts)
Location: 23:00 yest, with a large knife in my small bathroom
Mood: ill
Music: Too late for the young gun This is the year of the knife
Just saw the remake of Pelham 123 – the last scene shows someone riding the 7 train pretty much by his lonesome. The 7 train, in the early evening, is never that empty. Moreover, even when it is slightly empty, there’s always a dozen or so Asian teenagers on board at any given time.
I should know, I was onea them growing up.
1 hour 14 minutes into the film, there was a single shot of an Asian for a second.
Not onea those Asian activists – in fact this may be my only post in three years that even discusses what I am and not who I am – but it does bug me when we’re completely figuratively whitewashed outta of a movie.
Then again, it doesn’t really matter to me. Cause film’s all fantasy anywho. Reality is, we’re all up in this joint.
Funny thing is, who’s fantasy is it where you see onea us for only a second?
Have you met us? We’re lovely.
And when you order food from us, we give you tupperware.
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Word of advice: If you find yourself low on rum, with a painful wound, a large hunting knife, several toothpicks, some gauze and alcohol, it’s never rarely a good idea to do self-surgery. A conference with the Professor indicates that perhaps the wrong course of action was chosen.
I’m my own worst enemy, a danger to myself. In other news, I’ll be visiting the pharmacy tomorrow. Purpose: Painkillers and antibiotics.
Said we’re lovely, never said we’re particularly bright. I mean, we’ll stomp all over that curve but still…
YASYCTAI: If you had to, would you know how to take care of a wound? If not, pick up a book. (120 mins/1 pt)
Location: having a gyro with my pop east of 11354
Mood: still sick
Music: lemme light your candle, cause mama I’m sure hard to handle
Woke up this morning and fixed myself a killer filtered ground bean soup with cow-baby food. But just cause I can’t go a day without it, also had some roasted mashed peas with pre-digested insect vomit and baked wet flour along with it. Big fan of insect vomit. Especially when I’m sick. Wish I had liquid from a citrus reproductive unit to go with it but no luck.
Heartgirl just boiled some water with vegetables and dissolved insect vomit cause my cold’s coming back.
Stupid cold.
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Agree with Obama’s assertion that the phrase, Just words, is insulting. Words’re how we organize the world around us, not just to other people but to ourselves.
Was out with my girl the other day and we heard a guy just screaming obscenities at the top of his lungs in middle of Columbus Circle. And the people around him were visibly uncomfortable.
Look, sometimes few things match the situation better than expletive. And sometimes, y’gotta cut some people slack cause it’s the only vocabulary they got.
But what if it’s not? Cause, sometimes cursing’s just cursing, and that’s fine. But sometimes cursing’s showing the other person how y’process the world.
And that might not be what y’want.
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Woke up this morning and fixed myself a killer cafe au lait. But just cause I can’t go a day without it, also had some peanut butter and honey on a biscuit with it. Big fan of honey. Especially when I’m sick. Wish I had some lemon juice to go with it but no luck
Heartgirl just made me some tea with honey cause my cold’s coming back.
Damn cold.
YASYCTAI: Clean up that stack of magazine: read or toss. (240 mins/2 pts)